#1 Love note to baby - the prequel
Week 14.
I finally have the courage to write to you. I am lethargic. I am wheezing. Most of the time, i have no appetite. But the thought of harming you made me eat anyway. one small portion at a time.
I used to think, I am one of those people, who were not destined to nurture. I dont feel like I deserve the role. I am no where near a reflection of a mother. I preferred to be mothered. And yet. Here I am.
Who am I to deny the fitrah Allah bestowed upon me. Perhaps, I do deserve motherhood just like any other mother.
Week 13 wasn't easy. Perhaps one of the worst. Asthma had the best of my sleep and my entire week. I had to depend on my inhaler to stop my wheezing and incessant coughing. I feel like crying. But I know that wont solve anything. So I just persevered.
I hope that when I reflect back on all this, you will be smiling back at me. Prove that i persevered.
But until then, I am writing this prequel. So we can both read it later.
I finally have the courage to write to you. I am lethargic. I am wheezing. Most of the time, i have no appetite. But the thought of harming you made me eat anyway. one small portion at a time.
I used to think, I am one of those people, who were not destined to nurture. I dont feel like I deserve the role. I am no where near a reflection of a mother. I preferred to be mothered. And yet. Here I am.
Who am I to deny the fitrah Allah bestowed upon me. Perhaps, I do deserve motherhood just like any other mother.
Week 13 wasn't easy. Perhaps one of the worst. Asthma had the best of my sleep and my entire week. I had to depend on my inhaler to stop my wheezing and incessant coughing. I feel like crying. But I know that wont solve anything. So I just persevered.
I hope that when I reflect back on all this, you will be smiling back at me. Prove that i persevered.
But until then, I am writing this prequel. So we can both read it later.
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