Me time

 In the midst of life, I lost mine. 

I am so invested in meeting the needs of the people around me, I forgot what it feels like to be me.

So, today I got the chance to squeeze in some much needed me-time, and I feel energized. Exhilarated. Emancipated. from whatever it is that feels like such a burden.

I wonder what state I was in before. Do they have a name for it.

A 3km slow jog did good to my mental health. And so did the Burger King Americano. I dont need a fancy Arabica cold brew with vanilla foam to kick start my day. But I did splurge on a Japanese ice-cream that I dont need-coz-it-will-make-me-fatter just because I can. That one Family Mart trip that was so satisfying.

These small task that seemed mundane and ordinary when I was single is a saviour now that I am a working home-maker. It works wonder for my mental state.

FOr the first time in my life, in a very long time, I can finally browse on which ice-cream I wan to eat. I was always short on time before, since I feel the urgent need to be with my daughter whenever shes around. Mainly, it was the mom-guilt. I wish I have less of it. But I guess, it will take a while to overcome all these guilt and feelings.

Its not that motherhood robbed me of my freedom, its just that I have different priorities now. And it mainly revolves around my small nucleus family. its all that I have here in KL.

I know that this shall pass. Like eveyrthing in our life. So, Here I am, in the front seat of my own rollercoaster ride of my life. Enjoying every bit of the Aaira's assisted bath and diaper change and also the morning routine of coffee making with my husband. I know it's not going to stay stagnant forever.

So, cherish every mundane moment you have. Belive me, when you look back it these moments in the future, you will thank your lucky stars you were there back when your family needed you most.

Cheers.